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  • I’ve been keeping it together by staying busy and not letting myself fall apart, but the grief I keep shoving down isn’t shrinking
  • I keep my head down and stay busy so I never actually feel the loss, and now it ambushes me at random and won’t metabolize
  • The grief ambushes me at the worst times
  • The missing them comes in waves that physically knock the wind out of me, and when one crests I just need to get through the next few minutes without drowning
  • I’m stuck at one of two extremes with hard feelings

Practices that may help

  1. Task 2: Work through the pain of grief
    Allow and process the emotional and physical pain of loss rather than bypassing it.
    Worden’s Tasks of Mourning, Made Practical
  2. Deliberately engage loss-oriented work
    Set aside dedicated time to directly face the grief — the emotions, the absence, the meaning of the loss.
    The Dual Process Model of Grief, Made Practical
  3. Create a deliberate grief window
    Schedule bounded time to grieve, protecting both the grief process and the rest of life.
    Worden’s Tasks of Mourning, Made Practical
  4. Havening to soften acute grief activation
    Use gentle touch and brief distraction to lower the physiological intensity of grief surges.
    Self-Havening: Calming the Nervous System Through Touch
  5. Mindful awareness of suffering
    Hold painful feelings in balanced awareness — neither suppressing them nor being swept away by them.
    Self-Compassion, Made Practical
  6. Task 4: Find an enduring connection with the deceased
    Relocate the relationship from physical presence to an internal, meaningful connection.
    Worden’s Tasks of Mourning, Made Practical
  7. A — Allow the experience to be as it is
    Let what is present be here, without pushing it away, numbing it, or elaborating it.
    RAIN Meditation: Tara Brach’s Four-Step Practice
  8. Acceptance (willingness)
    Make room for unwanted feelings instead of struggling against them, so they stop running the show.
    Acceptance and Commitment Therapy (ACT), Made Practical
  9. Oscillate between grief and sense-making
    Allow periods of pure grief alongside periods of meaning construction — both are necessary.
    Meaning Reconstruction in Grief, Made Practical
  10. Treating grief as a form of gratitude
    When something ends and you feel grief, recognise that the grief is proportional to the love — and let it be both.
    Mono no Aware: The Pathos of Things

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